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camp was like the best! God moved in the camp-- touching hearts, healing wounds and making us realize that he has written ETERNITY in our hearts.

Mark came with us to camp (a family friend of ate rach and kuya migs). He's brother, Eugene, was the one supposed to come-- but he changed his mind the day before, so he did not go with us instead. but we all know that it has a purpose. God used Eugene as an instrument to change Mark's life.

Camp was on April 25-28. the day before,April 24, the De Leon's (mark and eugene's family) came over alabang to drop the kids for camp the next day, and so did we. we all slept over ate rachelle's house because it was nearer; since me and mark's homes are so far from Lighthouse (their church). we had dinner there, the parents talked and they left, finally! haha.

the next day was camp! we were all so exited, yet very anxious. i woke up at 5 am, and not surprised, everyone had woke up ahead of me, for short, i woke up late.call time was around 5:30 am. i still don't understand why we were moving so slow, and left the house at around 6 am na. I thought that we were late na, thank God we were not.

when we arrived at church, we saw the buses. my anxious-ness grew even more. we went down, got our bags and checked in. then we got our id's. it had a new look. the logo in the front, and they would your name at the back. me and ate rachelle sat together in the bus. behind us was the friends of kuya migs together with mark.

on the way, we all fell asleep. i still remember this stupid song playing, i think it was one of the weird opm songs. finally, we arrived. the place was called ROYAL PALM LEISURE PARK. it was huge, and it was all nature-ish. i met my group. and honestly, i did not want to be stuck with them because they were all younger than me. some just turned 13 and i am turning 15. i really did not want to be with them.

the session hall was very cool, and the mess hall (is the spelling correct?) is where we eat. it was a buffet syle of serving.

one time, i asked ate rach if i could change my group, but all she said was "criza, everything has a purpose. just deal with it." so i could not do anything.

i met other new friends that were my age. and i got stuck with them-- i sat with them, ate with them, and even stayed in their room. but of course, i go to my group din when it comes to group discussions.

my councilor's name btw is ate rachelle bruis. she is really pretty and blessed with so much.

April 26, second day. the night before, i could not sleep, thanks to the aircon. it was so HOT. i could not sleep well. so i woke up a bit cranky. i woke up at 5 am, and went outside to check if they were awake na. it was dark, and all i could remember was when i stepped outside, it felt like it was air conditioned. i waited and waited for the sun to rise and for the people to wake up. and so later at around 5:45, they did. we had so much fun the second day, we even had this "extra challenge" game. we were grouped into three-- Blue team, White team and the Black team. i was on the blue time, together with kuya Chris, kuya Jett, kuya joshua, kuya kirt, kuya timo, and ate michelle's group. mostly boys nga eh. the contest ended, and we were 2nd place. ok na rin. we had a cheer. it was something like this "blue......team.... and kinabukasan...." (its the song of kiko.haha)

April 27, third day. for me was the best! holy spirit night. that night, Tito peter and Tita Christine were the speakers.they talked about bitter roots, and all about the Parents. they were so amazing. i really love them, i love how they speak and teach us about all these stuff. i was in the front row so i was supposed to listen talaga. when they called the praise and worship team, i just started to cry, and so did everyone else. Tito peter made an altar call, he called on all the men who was never hugged by their father. and i was surprised, because there were lots of men who came, including a girl. lol. tito peter started hugging each and every person and that touched my heart, because it made me realize something that i really regret doing. as Tito peter was talking, my tears just kept falling like an open faucet. my hanky was full, and we were all perspiring, but that did not stop us from worshiping the Lord. Pastor mark called another altar call, and this time, he asked the crowd, who wanted to be filled by the holy spirit. and i was one of the first people who came in front. i was in the second row, and as the leaders started going around and praying for everyone, one by one they all fell down and were slaned by the Holy Spirit. Kuya brian prayed for me, i remember him saying "Lord, fill this girl. fill, fill, fill, fill" and he just kept repeating it. suddenly, a person in front of me was slaned and fell on top of me. so i fell with him-- good thing kuya brian was there to catch me. if not, i would have been under that huge g
uy who fell on me. i was on the floor na rin, and i knelt down and started crying again. i did not know what was happening, and why i was crying and screaming my heart out, all i know is, i was praying and asking the Lord to fill me once again. tito peter came in front of me, and started praying for me. i was screaming, and screaming like a little baby wanting his milk. i was opening my mouth, and just screaming with all my might. my arms and my body has goose bumps. my goose bumps had goose bumps on my goose bumps. and it was just so hard to move.

i remember looking back at the crowd, and seeing mostly everyone laying on the floor. i saw tita christine praying for this girl, and suddenly, she just fell on her back. i also remember jay being prayed over by tita christine. and also he got slaned.

i was not slaned-- thats a fact. including ate rachelle, kuya migs and mark. but it doesn't mean that we were not filled that night.

i am so proud of mark, since the past few days, he never went to stage for any altar call. but on that night, i saw him in front praying. i saw kuya migs praying for him. and i know that his life would not be the same again.

the night ended at 1am. after the service, they still kept on playing loud songs.

that day, i realized that Jesus is not ashamed of who you are. i am really insecure with my looks, i don't like to wear sleeveless clothes, short shorts and fitting shirts, because i think i am fat. but my councilor read a verse to me, and it said something like this-- Jesus loves you no matter who you are and no matter how you look. He sees the part that you don't like beautiful, and He would walk beside me, with His arm on my shoulder, and never be ashamed of me.. and thats when i realized how beautiful the Lord is. and how much he loves me.

the last day ended with a prayer, and with pictures. my mom and dad fetched me because we would go straight pa to this resort somewhere in Laguna too.

Eternity is forever in me, engraved in my heart, for the Lord has written it in here.
Eternity starts now. not tomorrow, not next year, but now.

Camp would forever stay in my heart. i love this camp so much and most of all, i love the Lord so much. He has given me a second chance, a second home and another clean page.

"I am the one who is, who always was, and who is still to come- the Almighty One." Revelation 1:8 NLT

"Give yourself to God.. Surrender your whole being to Him to be used for righteous purposes" Romans 6:13


"Love the Lord you God with all your heart with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength" Mark 12:30

To GOD be the GLORY!!

i miss my best friend. since we don't talk to each other anymore. thanks to his freaking' 19 year old girlfriend! i really really miss him. and i hope he could forgive me. although it was really his fault! he's being so stupid over that "celestina" girl whom he met over the ym. whatthe. thats not even right. im so worried and scared. i wish someone would tell me that its ok.